Which I don't mind my husband being a little over weight cause I think he is sexy know matter how much he weighs but my big thing is I want to feel skinny in my own way I know it would make our sex life better and even our marriage if I could just get it under control...I'm not one of those girls that think I need to be a size 0 or a size 5 to be happy not even a size 9...yes all of that would be great, but I really just want to be a size 12 or I might even settle for my 14's to fit a little loss but It seems nothing I try helps and I'm starting to feel so alone...Well about 2 weeks ago we started taking B12 to boast us up and it's helped I guess a little but I've never cried so much in the last few days cause...we got on the scales and my husband had lost 15lbs in 2 weeks but me on the other hand had lost 7 and then he got back on the scale after his shower with out his clothes on which he had his wallet change and whatever else he has to have and he had actually lost 20lbs ugh that just up sets me even more thanks Hun so I cry and cry he thinks someone has done something to me...so he starts getting mad ready to fight pretty much like who is making my baby cry...I tell him no one and at first he doesn't believe me and he's like really who made you mad I said no one...he said did you get on them scales again and I said yes and busted out crying again he grabs me and holds me and tells me that he didn't marry me because I was skinny he married me for me, but I want to be skinny and no matter how much I work out...no matter what I take it seem like I'm never going to get skinny...like seriously I grabbed him by the belt loop last night and could of put our 1 year old in his pants with him...how does he get so lucky...I pretty much eat nothing all day till dinner I try to just snack around a little and have a good dinner...which he does the same he get 2 cakes in his lunch (which I have no cake) he gets a sandwich like me and he gets 3 bottles of mt.dew and I might drink 2 bottle of diet pop all day which when he comes home he drink another 2 to 3 bottles of Mt.Dew and dinner and a big bowl of ice cream I've had ice cream 2 times when he has had it every night sine we started our diet this seems very unfair to me and I run up and down steps all day and chase after 5 kids all day why he goes to work and puts wires together I'm so confused on what I maybe doing wrong...I walk and everything would love to run but with 5 kids and a road not a good idea at all I told my husband I think I will when he gets home from work but I'm to tried from chasing kids all day...I was down to a 16 and could wear some of my 14 just 1 year ago after I had my daughter
I took that depo shot and gained 41 lbs. in 3 months from that stupid shot and I've been fighting every day to get it off and I breastfeed my daughter so you would of though that would of helped but no I didn't loss a single lb. since I stopped breast feeding 2 months ago you would of though me working hard to loss weight I would of lost something but nothing that's when I read b12 would help so I started taking it and only 7 lbs. in 2 weeks next to my husbands 20 lbs makes me super sad...I ate a whole bag of the snack size chips yesterday when I was just eat like 15 for the 110 cal. and really watching what I put in my mouth but I'm fed up...I'm starting fresh today and going to work on losing 7 more lbs over the next 2 weeks...and yes most people would be super happy with 7lbs and I would be if my husband hadn't lost more than me I'm going to get some slim quick I think I seen on TV it's said to help woman loss weight faster now if I only knew it work :( so Depressed :(
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